One of My Biggest Fears

Picture this:
The night before a presentation (be it a company/business/class presentation, debate, whatever it may be, you're going to speak in front of a huge crowd) you practice your lines over and over again. You feel confident and know your lines like the A,B,C's. Then finally you're big day arrives. You're in front of a group (all eyes and ears on you). It's dead silent. Your heart beats a little faster and a bit louder, you wonder if the crowd can hear the lub-dub-lub-dub- beat of your heart. You inhale, smile, clear your throat and open your mouth to speak. But...nothing comes out... Again, you clear your throat and at last you're able to get through your introduction. You're
starting to sweat as you feel everyone's eyes on you. Words no longer start to sound like words, you begin to replace them with ummm...aaahhh.... What do you do? 75% of the population have Glossophobia or fear of Public Speaking. What is it about public speaking that seems so scary? And how do you overcome it?

Tomorrow's my big day. There's a cocktail party tomorrow and my officemate volunteered for me to be the emcee/host for the whole evening! Volunteering someone is never good, why not volunteer yourself.My co-worker suggested that instead of hiring someone to host/emcee for the evening, the company would be able to save a lot of money if they had me to do it. She also mentioned how well I speak English and that I grew up in the U.S. so speaking in English would just be really natural for me.So anyway, I couldn't object, I am the youngest person in the office and for me to object would just look really immature. So I decided to rise to the challenge and face my fear. It wasn't until earlier today that I saw the invites list. There are a lot of big names on the list. What am I going to do?

The last time I actually had my share of public speaking was back in my college days, which was about 2 years ago. And I swear my heart was about ready to pop out. Tomorrow is the day that I get back on the saddle and try to tame my fear. I hope everything goes well. Even as I write this blog post I can feel my heart pounding and the butterflies in my stomach start to flutter. What is it about public speaking that seems to scare me? It's weird, I can talk to huge crowds and not shy away but put me up on stage with a microphone and lights focused on me with the same number of people and the same crowd and I would feel as though the whole world has come crashing down on me. Honestly, I wouldn't mind getting bit by a rottweiler all over again rather than emceeing or hosting an event. I'm sure a lot of you have the same problem. How do you guys deal?

Wish me luck guys!

Doing a Happy Dance

Hello my love! Yes you... You...reading this blog. First and foremost I'd like to thank each and everyone of you who are following me or have read my blog and left me some blog love. Thank you! I'm in such a happy mood. I've reached 100 followers! Yey! Thank you. Never have I thought I'd gain a hundred followers. I was always just happy thinking there was one person reading or commenting on my blog, but now, it's not just one it's a hundred! So you have all made my day.

I haven't been able to blog much lately and have not been able to visit everyone's blogs to leave comments. My schedule has been super duper busy and it's really nice to see that I still have you guys. I honestly thought I would loose a follower or two due to my absence from the blogosphere, but wow... You guys are still around.So anyhow...

I'm so happy that I'm doing the happy dance... Wanna see the happy dance? Well, I gotta warn ya, I can't dance. Not even to save my dear life. I've got two left feet, both with a mind of it's own. My mom on the other hand is just crazy with her Michael Jackson moon walking and crotch grabbing dance moves. I bet you guys wanna see that dontcha?
Well my love...Here's a video me and mommy dearest doing a happy dance. What are you waiting for? Hit the play button already. Enjoy. =)

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P.S. I hope you guys aren't mad at me. I just wasn't able to get a video of mommy dancing her famous dance. Maybe someone can help me set up hidden cams so that we can capture her dancing? lols...And I just could not dance for you guys, since I have no talent at all. I can't even dance to save my life. I swear I have two left feet, both a mind of it's own. lols...But ey, you guys still love me right? mwah mwah mwah...

Another Year Older

Last Wednesday July 15, 2009 marked another year into my 20 something years of life. I took a leave off from work, not just on my birthday but until July 17. I went back to work on the 18th. We have 15 days worth of paid leave! Yup, that's right, PAID LEAVE. So I still get paid even when I'm not at work. And on top of that I have another 15 days worth of PAID SICK LEAVE! lols...

So anyway...back to the point of this post. My birthday this year was a bit more quiet compared to the previous years but still very memorable. I woke up to my 2 younger cousins pounding on my room door, when I opened they had chocolate cupcake and cookies for me and they greeted me a happy birthday. Just as I was about to go back to bed, I hear Michael Jackson's Thriller playing loudly, my mom comes bursting through the doors trying her best to do the moon walk while handing me my presents!!! OMG! I sat in bed, wide eyed, as I watched in horror at my mom doing the moon walk, dancing to thriller and did a little crotch grabbing. EWWWW!!! Mommy!!! That was definitely something I did not want to see. Lols... She wanted to make things creative and really wanted me out of bed, so that sure did it.

My brother, who is in the U.S. also sent me a package. He got a really cute vintage bronze colored boho bag. Which I'll be using soon. I miss my brother, I hope by the end of this year we'll be together again.

I spent the rest of the day with my friends. We went to this really beautiful place called EDEN NATURE PARK. We had a blast, just snapping pictures. We were supposed to go horse back riding but unfortunately we didn't have enough time to do so...

Anyway, enough talk...Check out my birthday pictures....Can you guess, how old I am?

Influential Blogger 2009

I promised a friend of my from blogosphere that I would submit an entry for this project called INFLUENTIAL BLOGS For 2009. Blogs who are nominated for this project must have been created anywhere from May 1, 2008 to the present. There are tons of blogs out there that I really love and it was really hard to scope out particular blogs that were created from May 1, 2008 to the present. I think this project is a nice way of giving traffic to newbies in the blogosphere.

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So here's my list of my 10 influential blogs for 2009 (in no particular order) :
1. ) Zorlone - His blog is full of really well written poems. Poems, that just touches your heart.
2.) ScoMan of A NAME IN YOUR RECOLLECTION: His posts are wickedly witty and just really makes me you laugh and smile.
3.) Duni of Lovely Purses- she inspires me to become more creative. Her works are just soooooooo beautiful! I wish I had her talent.
4.) Differential Diagnosis- this guy is such a charmer, he knows how to take care of the ladies. His self discipline and martial arts skills is just so amazing. And at such a young age he was already a businessman. He started his candy business in middle school. His posts are always interesting and entertaining, I'm not one who is a big fan of martial arts and fight stuff but damn, he has a way of capturing the imagination and attention of his readers that leaves everyone wanting more.
5.) PinkNic- her blogs are always light and happy. She is so fun and always full of positivity. She also shows appreciation to her readers by posting a weekly READER OF THE WEEK and is also known for interacting with her readers with her weekly Friday Discussion. This girl can turn any dark day into something light happy and pink. =)
6.) Miss Rambles- well the name is a bit misleading. She doesn't really ramble on and on about life's misfortunes. She does however post a lot of interesting stuff, topics that opens your mind and allows you to see the other aspects of things. She has topics about living your dream to assisted suicide to something really light and funny like an avatar of granny undies. When she's angry she can be a spider killer too. I just recently found her blog and am addicted!
7.)Life of Leetid- From yummy eye candies (monthly hottie) to image fridays, and pictures of the hottest outfits. This is the place that has a little bit of everything. There's always something new and something entertaining about this blog that leaves me coming back every now and then.
8.) Orchestrated Destiny- This blog teaches me a lot about love, transition, and about life in general. It also discusses topics such as dating and taking risks...Things that most everyone can relate to.
9.) Confessions of a Twenty Something Year Old- this is one of my favorite blogs to jump to. This blog often times leaves my cheeks and tummy hurting from laughing so much. She is also known for her hilarious KIDS HATE ME SATURDAYS posts... =)
10.) 20-Something Dreams- Oh my, where do I start with this blog. It's another fun blog definitely worth visiting. For those of you who like to experiment on cocktails, well she's got some wicked recipes that you can easily make. I'll be trying out her recipes in the near future. =)

So guys, let's support these wonderful bloggers by posting entries for this project by clicking here or you can also drop by their blogs and leaving some blog love. =)

Letting Off Some Steam

Alright, folks, you know the rules. Join us all in humiliating the crap out of yourself every Thursday by sharing some completely tasteless, wholly unclassy, "how many readers can I estrange THIS week??" TMI story about your life. Or hell, about someone else's!***


It was freezing cold in the office today. The A.C. was up on full blast and the air was blowing towards me. I tried to turn down the A.C. but the fat lady in the office would not have it any other way but to have it on high. She sweats a lot and has to have the A.C. on full. So anyhow, I adjusted the A.C. to have it hit her directly and she got angry. She told me not to mess with the adjustments and so she had the A.C. blowing towards me again! BRRRR...So anyhow... All that A.C. was making me feel gassyyyy... lols... I burped a few times but really in a really prim and proper, lady like manner.

As soon as it was time to go home, my friend and I hurried out of the office. We walked together towards the parking lot. In the middle of our conversation I pushed her far from me and stopped in my tracks. She asked me why I shoved her. And I answered "The cold cold air from the air conditioner is making me really gassy! I have to fart!!!! And It will stink like hell because I've been constipated and haven't taken a dump in 4 days!"....

She looked shocked and slowly her jaw dropped. I panicked and looked behind me. And there he was, the guy that every girl in the building fantasized about. It was Mr. Hottie! Oh shit! Mr. Hottie avoided eye contact but I could see him trying to hide the disgusted smirk on his face.

Oh my gosh!!!! This totally ruins my prim and proper lady like image! That was not just one fart but two farts in a row and to make matters even worse, the fart was not only loud but it was really smelly too. Like rotten eggs! Wahahahahaha...

But hey, I just had to let off some steam. I hope you readers aren't disgusted with little ol' me. =) Mwah. And by the way, special shout out to LiLu of Livit,Luvit she is the QUEEN OF TMI THURSDAYS!


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Crackin Under Pressure

Some people crash and burn under pressure and others need to be pressured to do their best. I'm not good with surprises, I like to be informed ahead of time of my deadlines. I'm very particular with my time and have to do something every single minute. And to be told that I have to get something done in such a limited amount of time considering that I have other things scheduled for every hour just gets to me. But I guess, that's how life is sometimes. There are things that we just can't control. Eventually throughout the years I've learned to be a bit more flexible.

One type of pressure that I just can't handle is someone yelling at me. I'm a major cry baby and well, I guess I can be super sensitive. I just can't handle someone screaming, yelling, and pointing at me and making me feel stupid. I would definitely have a breakdown.

Back when I was still in college and majoring in Nursing, I feared of making mistakes. Especially if I was in the hospital. Honestly, it wasn't about causing harm to my patients that scared me, it was doing something wrong and getting yelled at, or worse, having a doctor through a scalpal or surgical knife at me. There have been instances that I heard of doctors being so furious with little minor mistakes that they literally throw stuff at you. That really scared me. Thank goodness, I never experienced such a scenario.

Under pressure, my hands feel cold, my heartbeat races, my body gets really sweaty. My heartbeats so fast and so loud I could literally hear it pounding in my ears. Then I feel queezy and feel like I have butterflies fluttering in the pit of my stomach. I hope one day, I'll learn to get rid of these feelings.

My mom has never ever raised her voice at me when I did anything wrong or needed to be disciplined. She would have the meanest look when she was angry with me, but never has she insulted me or made me feel stupid. The only person who's ever yelled at me is my brother, but I mean come on, siblings fight and yell at each other all the time. That's just normal. So if someone ever yelled at me, I really would be a cry baby, since my own mother, the woman who has raised me and has been my rock has never spoke to me in such a tone and thus, no one but her has the right to do so.

So I'll get to the point. You're probably wondering what happened and the reason for behind this post. Well, nothing in particular. It's just that my latest tv addiction just happens to be about working under pressure. I'm addicted to Hell's Kitchen. The tv show is hosted by CHEF RAMSEY. And this guy is super mean. If you think Simon Cowell from American Idol is mean then this guy, Chef Ramsey is just super badddd... He's such a devil. This guy is super bad, he will cuss at you, hiss at you, and make you feel like a low life, heck, he will even spit your food out if it does not fit to his standards. The kitchen is hot but the pressure under Chef Ramsey is much hotter! I was just imagining myself working for him and wow...I'd be super miserable. But there are lessons to be learned in this tv show. It's really a must watch for me. Here's a clip. Please check it out. If you wanna skip to the part where all the action heat's up you might want to scroll if up to 3:04 .



What do you guys think of Hell's Kitchen? If you were put in this kind of pressure, would you be able to perform well? Or would you crash and burn?